💭 What am I supposed to write in my journal? 💭
I recently received a YouTube message from a subscriber after they saw my Self-Care Routine video. They asked what do I write in my journal or what you’re supposed to write in a journal. The latter has no real answer. However to answer the former: I write anything and everything. I write 2 pages every morning, and I write about whatever is on my mind at the time. If I can’t figure out what to write, I will literally write “I don’t know what to write right now…” because that is what was on my mind. By giving myself a two page requirement every morning, I kind of force myself to dig into issues or thoughts that I’ve buried. Things that make us feel something (bother us, make us angry, bring us joy, etc) are always going to be at the top of the mind. That’s usually what we write about first. But what happens once you’ve already ranted, or debriefed a good day? What happens if you don’t feel any way in particular…you’re kind of just neutral?
If I’m feeling neutral, I’ll write about how I’m feeling neutral. One time I wrote about how neutral I was feeling, then I started listing things that made me happy. One of those things was frozen yogurt. So I went out and bought some frozen yogurt. I was happy for the rest of the day. By writing about neutral I was feeling, I ended up making myself happy. ICONIC!
On the other hand, if I feel overwhelming anxiousness then I’ll write about how anxious I’m feeling. Once I’ve written about that, I usually have another half a page or so to go. This will make me figure out why I’m feeling anxious. If I didn’t put a page requirement on journal entries, then I’d probably just write how I’m feeling and call it a day. But with a requirement of pages to write, I get the opportunity to get real with myself and dig a little deeper. If I get real with myself, I find myself uncovering truths. Sometimes these truths are things I’ve already known, but buried them because I didn’t want to confront reality. And you know what? Avoiding reality is actually a huge source of my anxiety. I find it’s better to attack an issue head-on than to ignore it and let it fester.